Exchanging messages with a broken girl

Pop, a notification on your screen. A message from Emi, that's unusual, she doesn't text first that often.

Even though there’s no reason
for me to exist in this world—

I’m still here,
still breathing.

An empty shell of myself,
holding back my voice,
saying: “One more time… hey,
one last time…
even if I fail again, that’s enough.
Goodbye.”

I stumble, left alone in sorrow,
I melt away,
turning into pale white ash.

No matter how much love you pour into me, it leaks out.
Even swallowing it down feels meaningless.

I don’t belong here,
but death won’t come.
There’s no reason,
yet we keep arguing.

Ah—so normal, the way you are.
Ah—so abnormal, the way kindness hurts.

Raspy curses—I cover my ears.
Forgotten damage—milligram by milligram.

No talent, no difference, just weak.
Begging for forgiveness with empty words.

No matter how hard I try, it’s all ridiculous.
Even hating it, I can’t take it anymore.

Kill me.
Fill me.
Doctor, bring me to life—

Even though there’s no reason
for me to exist in this world—

I’m still here,
still breathing.

An empty shell of myself,
holding back my voice,
saying: “One more time… hey,
one last time…
even if I fail again, that’s enough.
Goodbye.”

I stumble, left alone in sorrow,
I melt away,
turning into pale white ash.

"So.... what do you think?"

No more messages after this one, is this some poetry she wrote? how do you interpret this?